Cristina Paynes

You are entering a new version of you and you feel scared. New job, new perspective, you are learning to unlearn in so many ways, and that is terrifying. The old you, the one you are still shedding, is worried you may fail, she thinks you don’t have the fire you so loudly proclaim. It’s understandable, because all you have been doing until now is cater to her so she is happy, but it hasn’t been enough. Has it?

NOW is your time. Time to get back to your writing. Time to get back to your photography, videography, to that podcast you have been talking and thinking about for at least 5 years! It’s almost time to also get back to training. Not just intellectually, but spiritually. Most of the time, we as adults, leave behind what allows us to connect back to earth. To the universe. To your roots. There is so much movement happening even as you sit there still. You are the center of the calm, the chaos, the beauty, and even the ugly. Don’t let the failures, the negativity that enters your mind discourage you. It isn’t failure nor is it negativity. All the dark, all the “ugly”, they are fuel to the fire that is inside you.

Deconstruct it. Break it apart. Analyze it. Then do what you know to do best! FIX IT!!! Make it work for you. Learn from it. Don’t let it consume you and drag you into a wormhole. We both know that you can’t survive there. You don’t like that space. So, don’t go there. You will succeed in what you set your mind to. You’ve done it before, many times. Sometimes out of boredom. You have the magic, it’s just a little lazy.

Time to wake it the F-k up!!!